Today was NOT like one of those fly dreams. I started with therapy, which is always good, but still manages to bring up a lot of stuff that I wish I was better at (parenting, obviously; compersion; being in a good mood). I went straight from Ramona to the gym, where I only had 15 minutes to book it on the elliptical before I had to shower and get ready for work. Except when I went to shower, I realized that I'd packed everything (including a mismatched pair of earrings) and NO TOWEL.
NO SHOWER FOR YOU! Thank god I only worked out for 15 minutes. I just got to be extra dewy the rest of the day.
Work was quick and delightful and then before picking up the kids, I shopped and shopped for a happy light and never found one. I'm pretty sure I'm dealing with SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). I'm NOT my usual chipper perky self and I'm still doing ALLTHETHINGS. Even just today I picked up the kids and was so totally exhausted from my very light day that I had to come home and take a nap before I could face the world or even put away my laundry.
That is NOT normal for me. Usually I have so much energy it's annoying. I was trying to explain all this to my therapist and it was strange because nothing's technically WRONG. I just feel like a more delicate, precious version of myself and I really don't like it. I'm supposed to be the person who never gets her panties in a wad. Only right now I feel like I've got so many wads going on, I need a jock strap to hold them all in. I really HATE feeling this irritable. I can hold my breath and will it away when I need to, but I'd really prefer to just get my usual happy-go-lucky self back, thankyouverymuch.
Recommendations for happy lights? I'm thinking this is a thing Amazon needs to Prime to me ASAP.